When u have a long conversation with yourself,
feeling guilty of doing something not knowing what it is,
there's something wrong.
Needs fixing Yea.
My heart needs healing.
My heart was yours.
Everyone deserves a second chance, too bad you blew it.
My small self is changing, i can feel it.
My soul is drying, tears of blood it shed.
I'm going to talk like when you were next to me.
I never got to tell you, you'll never hear my voice again.
Remember the time we kissed? Yea i liked it.
Remember the time you ignored me? Yea i forgot about it.
Remember the time you told me you wanted me? Yea i am not easy.
Remember the time you said you liked the way i would pronounce your name? I liked it.
Remember today when we hung out and you gave me attitude? Yea i'm not the other one.
I wished upon the stars it brought you back.
I wished for my prince, not a stranger...
Your smell its still in me
Your voice its music to my soul
Your kisses were like no others
I am going to miss all the things we shared.
Too bad you couldn't appreciate a girl like me.
I am the one you'll never find again.
How about a taste of your own medicine?
the deletes from FB- the missing calls/texts.
Along with other things & my past, goodbye past, hello future.
</3 broken hearted and more like stronger than ever.
goodbye.
just like today, i though of you
just like yesterday, i was thinking of you
the day before yesterday i was still not over you...
days and months have passed.
seven to be exact.
the pain & confusedness is still there, here.
the minute i seen our memories my heart yelled, STOP.
stop thinking he's here, because he's not.
stop thinking of him and of everything that's not.
i want to erase your name, your face, your memory
every little thing i do, it's a memory.
my heart rips apart when i hear your name
i've tried too hard to forget that name.
these past months I've tried SO hard to get over everything.
i (can't move on).
i want to yell at you,
scream at your face and tell you how much
i miss being next to you.
they say things happen for a reason,
but i still can't figure out our reason.
my life just isn't the same...
i can't breathe i want to live, but i just can't live.
remember the time, when i said i was afraid of falling in love...
i wasn't wrong, the hardest goodbye is the one i'm still at.
only in those pictures,
i see your face, my stomach goes weak,
my eyes want to cry, my soul wants to dry.
i wish i had a time machine to tell you how much you really meant to me.
to tell you how much i really appreciated you.
i can't seem to find a way to LOVE again.
i want to LOVE again, i want to have a summer LOVE again.
i miss you so dam much.
Number 1: I love the smell of soap, makes me want to eat it.
Number 2: When i was 8 there was a 14 yr old kid that wanted to marry me. (creepy, i know)
Number 3: My favorite colors are Pink and Blue.
Number 4: I've always liked older guys than me. (hehehe)
Number 5: I think tall bearded guys are sexy <3 LOL
Number 6: I want to get laser hair removal. -__-
Number 7: I love taking pictures. :)
Number 8: I love Veggies, Anything with Veggies!
Number 9: I don't drink soda, there's no soda in my house (only on special occasions)
Number 10: When i was younger i got ran over by a car riding my bike :|
Number 11: I absolutely love Hooters! (TMI please!)
Number 12: When i was little i was SUPER skinny.
Number 13: I have to admit i am poor (at the moment) :(
Number 14: I never had a cotillion (and i'm mexican)
Number 15: i love MY ass ;) (in general)
Update on things going on right now :)
Yesterday i met with a trainer at Bally Total Fitness (Oh yeah i signed up at the gym)
She weight me and calculated my body fat and bmi?
So long talk short, I am overweight when my short self used to weight 140 (Back in the softball days)
I weight 163 pounds, OMG! i was shocked! Well i definitely have some work to do.
I plan to lose 30 pounds by summer, and i know deep in my heart I CAN DO IT.
My first workout at the gym with the trainer was not easy AT ALL, i was dying...
After almost passing out she gave me some sort of massage, pulling my legs and stretching my arms LOL I felt much better.
Talking about my goals made me realize i can be motivated without falling off track, for sure i have to eat healthy and attend the gym AT LEAST 3 days out of the week and even sundays :)
I don't plan to train with her due to the HIGH payments she asks for, i can't afford it :(
So for now i have to find a workout plan and cut back the junk food for sure this time.
I have to keep myself busy with activities like riding a bike or walking to the park.
If anyone out there has some sort of a beginner workout for me, meal plan or fitness tips websites anything! please comment me or send me an email at
jessperez41@yahoo.com
For now this is it, I am on mission to lose 30 pounds by summer look good for the beach ;)
I will answer ANYTHING!
